The author reflects on their journey of understanding agency, constraint, and selfhood influenced by experiences, philosophy, and Christian faith. Grappling with free will and determinism, particularly during time in prison and battles with depression, they emphasize the importance of recognizing personal agency within life’s complexities. The concept of divine will as a “playground,” allowing freedom within boundaries, underscores a proactive approach to life, valuing affirmative choices over mere prohibitions. Ultimately, the author advocates embracing the “yes” of existence to foster meaning, creativity, and authentic self-expression.